today i am wrong again, but it's not surprising

loads of religious discussion caused me to have a dream that god himself (itself?) was talking to me. he/it told me that unless i start believing, i am going to hell. it was kind of scary. according to the dream dictionary, To dream that God speaks to you, signifies feelings of guilt, eternal punishment, and damnation. i do have problems with guilt. i still hate work. i have to go in fourteen more times before easter break. then i get a whole ten days to myself. for a fleeting moment, i convinced myself to go to england, but my bank balance wouldn't even pay for a plane ticket, so that option has been abandoned. i've been trying to write this update for about an hour, so i'm giving up. all week, i was thinking of good things to write in here, but i've forgotten everything.