here's another sunday morning call

buckets of rain to end my week off, and that's fine by me. i started some experimental slide photography, which will hopefully produce some good results. i also bought some black and white film for my manual camera, which made me remember when i was photographing brian a few summers ago at the laundromat. i went through all of my old slides and black and white photos from that summer, and i wish i had a scanner to show some of them off. i was supposed to be documenting someone or something unfamiliar to me, but i chose brian because i am an antisocial wuss and because it meant that i got to spend extra time with brian. so, i spent a month taking pictures of him in his 'everyday life' and at his work, a laundromat in chelsea. it was one of the best experiences of my life, and some of the photos are so hilarious because they're so obviously posed. in half of them, brian looks like he's about to start laughing. sometimes i wish i could be fifteen again just to relive that summer. and it was so special that i still have a difficult time articulating what it exactly meant to me. i am going to write a novel about it one day though, when i find the words.nostalgia aside, i regrettably have work tomorrow. this past week, in doing nothing that i hate and everything that i enjoy, i fully realised how much i actually detest my job. last weekend, when brian and i were painting, i went on an uber-rant about it, which i think made me feel even worse about everything. there's just so much to hate. i know that there are brief moments when i enjoy it- when i get to take a break and have a good conversation with certain co-workers, or when i get to work with the nerdy kids who remind me of myself at that age - but those moments are so sparse and fleeting that they don't even come close to compensating for the utter drudgery that is my job. a bit overdramatic, but the thought of having to be there in less than twelve hours is obscene.molee will be here in seventeen days.these were taken in rockport with my digital camera, not the aforementioned manual camera with the slide film.